Lost My Motivation

Was looking for my motivation on Sunday
when I went on an eight kilometre walk

It is disappointing to say that and it is easy to look for excuses as to why this has happened. The easiest of the excuses would be to blame it on hockey; afterall I am coming off a whirlwind of games and travel over the past couple of weeks.

It all started with the trip to Chilliwack on March 14th to play the first two games in the best of five first round series down there. I had plans of walking from the rink to the hotel as I have in the past at least once and even recruited the temporary trainer who seemed to be interested in doing that. I never did walk with him but, to be fair to myself, I did walk from the rink to the hotel on the morning of the 15th. Since then I haven't done much of anything.

It rained while we were down there and then of course there was the Saturday overnight trip back home to Prince George. Sunday morning I was in the Spruce Kings office until after 2pm and can't really remember doing much of anything after that. Monday and Tuesday, the games were in Prince George so I was in the office for most of the days. Following Tuesday's game we had to ride back down to Chilliwack for Wednesday's game ... that the Spruce Kings lost.

Instead of coming home on Wednesday night, we stayed in Chilliwack over night and drove home Thursday instead and that is when the lack of motivation took full effect. I didn't do anything Thursday night, all day Friday or all day Saturday. My Fitbit steps took a beating so to speak and I have updated Fitbit for almost two weeks.

Fitbit, as I mentioned earlier, is the reason for my increased activity and weight loss. Instead of embracing that over the past two weeks, I have done the exact opposite with lots of drinking and excessive eating with little to no activity. How am I going to be able to run a 5K road race?

On the plus side, it is just over two months away and if I can get back on track, should be able to get myself ready for it.

Although my eating is not back to where it should be and my weight is showing that being seven pounds up over my weight two weeks ago, I did go for a long eight kilometre walk with a few hills on the trail on Sunday, I walked home from work on Monday night and on Tuesday I went to the gym to see how I would fare on the treadmill - no 5K there I can tell you.

Maybe having that "step back" will be good for me, but I don't like the feeling that I am starting from square one so I will have to do something about that to get completely back on track. The plan is to get back to the gym three times a week and maybe even start trying to do some running on the road using the C25K app.

Challenging myself to get back into a routine shouldn't be difficult, and I did promise myself that I would never see 230 again which is only 4 kgs away again. I have a 5K race to run and I'm thinking I would be better off if my weight was closer to the 200 mark than it is now for sure. I know I can do this and have to get back to tracking the data I was tracking before including calorie consumption.

I started this on my own, I signed up for the 5K on my own and I have to get back on track now on my own. I have to be my own best motivator and remember what it was like before, cause it was enjoyable seeing that success on the scales and on the track/treadmill.